PENNIE SPENDS A POUND

Just a short msg tonight,. I was a bit short of cash earlier because I missed the Big Issue office where my money is kept. So me and the dog went to Balham with 3 of last weeks mag. It took a while but I finally sold 2 (I told everyone they were last weeks,and would have the new copy tomorrow - tue). I headed to sainsburys with the £4 I had made to get a much needed bag of sugar and thought well I will give Pennie a pound to spend on a treat.So at the reduced section which I visit nearly every night I spotted some steaks reduced from £5 someting to 99p .Well as you can imagine Pennie just loved them and is now dreaming about what she will get tomorrrow with her £1.I didnt even have to open 1 of her cans of Pedigree Chum for her - I might eat it myself during the night if I feel like a snack .

WEEK IN BED .

I have been laid up since last friday with a chest infection , which makes breathing hard work . I feel a little better today so I may go out to sell some BIG ISSUES . I see the doc again on monday, and Im hoping to get my  life back on track then - this week Ive missed appointments and failed to do things I should have .So wish me luck - thanks.

BREATH BEFORE DISHONOUR

COPD - a group of lung diseases that includes chronic bronchitis and emphysema most often caused by cigarette smoking.Also included is chronic asthma , which is hypersensitivity of the air passages .These three conditions have one thing in common - they limit the flow of air into and out of your lungs .

THE KEY TO CONTROLLING MY DISEASE - is to try and gain a better understanding of it.I must make changes in my lifestyle , this will be hard for me ,but will allow me to lead a more active life .

THE HARDEST AND MOST IMPORTANT THING I MUST DO IS TO STOP SMOKING

Ive tried all manner of things without any luck to help myself  stop smoking  . At the moment Im using a NICORETTE INHALATOR without any progress.What I really need is more WILLPOWER.

THE JOY OF COPD

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CHRONIC OBSTRUCTIVE PULMONARY DISEASE :

     CHRONIC = the fact that COPD is a long term condition.

     OBSTRUCTIVE = my airways are partially blocked ,I find it hard to breathe .

     PULMONARY = condition related to lungs + connected airways .

     DISEASE = illness .

  HOW DO I FEEL ?  *out of breath  *exess phlegm  *coughing  *tightness in the chest  *constantly tired  *depressed  *weak  *helpless - but in general I feel j...ju....just WONDERFUL of course .
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     Ive been in bed since friday, too weak to go out selling BIG ISSUES until last night (tue) ,I managed to get to Balham and sell a couple of mags. Its wedensday night  9.20 and Im about to go and take Pennie to Balham to try and sell some magazines. I missed my hospital appointment on Monday morning. I have an appointment with my doc next mon afternoon ,whilst there I will make an appointment for a breathing test and see if I can get back into PYSIO . I stopped going a few months ago because watching people wheeling oxygen tanks about and thinking this could soon be me was doing my head in .Well got to go life is not all play and no work as you all know .

NEIGHBOURS ARE JUST not GOOD FRIENDS

You might have noticed that I whine about my neighbours now and again , but being too soft I tend to feel sorry for them sometimes . I shouldnt really because Im just as poor as them and I dont spend my money on drink,gambling and illegal substances . As a rule I avoid neighbours like the plague as I enjoy my privacy and some peace and quiet .I have to talk to them though to make sure they keep the gate locked,with Pennie being nearly blind and I suspect a bit senile she has started to wander towards Norewood High st . Maybe she thinks Ive gone there , because she goes to my old pitch or some of the charity shops or did do the one time she escaped. I also have a friend who lives up the hill she ran to his place started barking when he come out and she sussed I was not there she ran back home.Meanwhile I had woke all the neighbours up (it was 2am) and sent them off in different directions to look for the dog,. All this took place in a five minute time frame so I think it was a fast response time, but as it turned out I did not need them . Which just goes to show they really are good for ***k ALL.

Prepaid card for Pennies Stroller.

You could not begin to imagine, the effect of not having a bank account is having on my life at the moment . I would like to sell things online to suplament my income ,but its difficult for me to recieve payments, unless I ask people to pay with Postal Orders (uncrossed) and I cant blame people for being wary about sending POs to complete strangers.Ive spent most of my life buying and selling all sorts of things at boot sales and markets, its all I know plus I enjoy it. Because of bad health and lack of transport , I think it would be better for me to start a online second hand shop. Im always picking up or getting given all sorts of things plus I spend most of my spare cash in charity shops. My rooms like a cross between Steptoes Yard/Blockbuster and Waterstones . With me being rehoused sometime in the near future I will be needing what ever money I can earn to fix it up , but thats in the future . Closer to home I am currently trying to raise the money to get Pennie her stroller and a digital camera for me , which I need in order to take pictures of the items I am going to sell . Yesterday I bought a Splash Plastic Prepaid Maestro card for £10 from Smiths in Balham and Im having difficulty regestering it , looks like I will be going to the St Mungoes office in the morning to use their phone to call the help line .My main reason for getting the card is to save for Pennies pushchair, everytime I get £20 I can put it on my card at apay-point . Pennie is not used to being on her own ,most her life she has gone everywhere with me . If I have to leave her with someone for a few hours she wont eat or drink and sits at the door until I return . She is happy to sit in our room on her own for a few hours, she usually gathers all my clothes and bedding and makes a nest for herself .I worry though when I leave her alone her eyesight is failing and she has accidents trying to climb on my bed and then jumping off , only last week she jumped into the TV and got wedged between the TV and the wall . When I take her anywhere I have to carry her beanbag(she wont sit down unless she has it) and other things ,which are a strain on me which is why I cant get out selling mags as often as I should .So the stroller/pushchair will be a great help to both of us . Some people think I spoil her to much saying things to me like "shes only a dog" which I can understand because until I got Pennie I myself couldnt fathom how some people get so attached to their animals . I nearly said pet but she is more than that , she is like a person to me and a very special one at that . With a bit of luck then by the end of this month you should see Pennie relaxing and taking things easy in her stroller. One last word ,if anyone has earned a comfortable old age , its her .

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ALICI PROJECT;Dark Angel/Code Red,(INTENSIVE,12")
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